I'm gradually reading through all the "Right where I am" posts linked to Angie's blog. Gradually being the operative word. I am marking exam papers, pressing deadlines and dealing with a small, cranky boy who is trying to grow some pre-molars and has decided nursing for 23 out of 24 hours is the best way to deal with the pain. (He's probably right).
But, I am slowly reading - and commenting on - every single one. The power and the pain; the beauty and the horror are immense. I have nodded along to each post I have read, recognising shared experiences ... wishing each of us did not have to be a part of something so wonderful but so sad. I am being reminded of things that I could have included in my own post but didn't. Maybe there are still words to pour into this place.
For example: I could have talked about music - and the way a silly, chirpy little song like this one, with the words "I love you more, everyday" can pop up on the radio first thing in the morning and make a babylost mama cry:
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I'm reading (and commenting on them all) as well. I have enjoyed it immensely and have found it to be so therapeutic.
I've seen all of your lovely comments as well. Our community feels so strong and connected right now.
xo
Yes, once I hit "publish post" I began to realize all the things I had accidentally left out. I could write for days and still leave important details out I'm sure. Thinking of you and sending you tons of love. XOXO
It's been such a powerful project. I think I'm barely half way through reading them all!
Never heard that song before, but yeah, can totally see why that would make you cry. x
I wish I could find the words (and time to just focus on some words as well) In the early days everything flowed so easily.. every single thought was so raw.. I keep intending to participate in the where I am now, because I remember NEEDING that knowledges when it was me in those first days, weeks, months.. needing to know that i'd survive and be happy again - but I try to write something out and it's just so hard for me. I haven't even been reading them yet, because I KNOW that anything I write will sound so similar and I want to own my own words, so I wait.. and hopefully someday soon I will be able to join the awesome women and write my own where I am now. :)
Wow, bless you for reaching out to each writer of the posts. I have read through several myself. Love the idea of getting to each of them and leaving a little love.
Thanks for visiting my blog.
Jen
Beautiful Jill and thanks for sharing. It is so meaningful.
Thanks so much for visiting me over at my blog(s). I went back and read the stories of Emma's birth and your journey after up until your son's birth. I'm fighting tears. I am trying SO hard to have a rainbow baby* and it just hasn't happened yet. Technically it hasn't been long, but every month feels like a year. Reading about his birth made me feel better - like I have some hope for the future and that, if God willing we do have another, I will make it through labor and delivery.
*something I'm not really discussing on my blog
xo.. and hoping you do still have words to share.
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